I hesitated, then took it. “Thank you.”
I always listened to good advice. On a weekend, I went to the clinic next door, took a series of tests, and received my diagnosis: severe depression.
Holding the report, I sank to the ground, pressing myself into the corner of the wall. A sudden helplessness took
over.
Depression-
That must be an expensive illness.
A single hour of therapy costs hundreds. I can’t afford to be sick. I didn’t tell Grandma.
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Fortunately, the school offered free counseling. I went to the school doctor, who spoke gently, patiently guiding me toward the root of the problem.
There was nothing much to find. Just a pair of wretched parents and a sister who reaped all the benefits.
Most psychological wounds start at home.
The doctor encouraged me to talk to my parents. I hesitated for a long time before finally going back. Gathering my courage, I showed them the report, trying, for once, to talk, to be heard.
When I was younger, I was naive. At my lowest, I buried myself in my blanket at night, crying in silence, imagining that if I died, they would regret everything.
Of course, that was just a fantasy. Life is precious, after all.
Now, I had arrived at the same place, but by a different road This time, I was sick. How would they react? Would they regret it? Would they care for me like they did my sister when she was ill?
It felt like my soul had split in two. One half was the eighteen–year–old me, cold and mocking, expecting nothing from anyone. The other half was the child me, still foolishly hoping to be loved.
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