Until my hands closed around a leather–bound notebook.
The cover read: “Alice’s Treatment Journal.”
May 11 – Clear Skies
Alice lost her memory again today.
This time, she imagined me as the people who hurt her back then.
Honestly, I never seem to get a good role in her mind.
Alice, can’t you picture me as your savior just once?
I swear, I’m starting to feel wronged here.
May 12 – Clear Skies
The cigarette burn on the wrist actually hurts more than I thought.
But when I remember that this was the pain you had to endure back then, my chest aches even more.
Alice.
I never lied to you.
If I can’t take your pain away, then suffering the same way you did is the only thing I can do.
May 15 – Overcast
+15 BON
I was a little annoyed today.
This girl has some real nerve. She dumped an entire bottle of milk over my head.
Though, to be fair, I poured one over her too.
Since her medication dissolves well in milk, I usually give it to her that way.
But now, she’s refusing to drink it.
No amount of coaxing is working.
May 18- Clear Skies
Sigh. Looks like I have to start giving her the meds again.
Just like before, Alice has begun hallucinating people who don’t exist.
This time, she imagined a woman named Lily Shaws
Wait, wasn’t that the username she used in that martial arts game back in high school?
Didn’t she also give me a name in the game? Julian Scotts, wasn’t it?
The doctor says I have to keep playing along.
Alright.
At this rate, I’m going to win an Oscar.
May 27 Clear Skies
Do you really think stuffing a pillow under your shirt means you’re pregnant?
Alice, we all saw it.
Even when you’re being ridiculous, you’re still adorable.
June 1 – Clear Skies
It happened.
I hit her.
Serena came over tonight, and Alice started acting strange.
1 figured it was because she hadn’t been taking her meds again–her thoughts were spiraling.
But I never expected her to grab the knife from the table and stab herself.
She was muttering something under her breath, probably another delusion.
